Its crunch time. Only 11 days left...
These are the last few days that will make me or break me... but my god I'm so ready to step on that stage.
I don't want to moan or turn this into a 'feel sorry for me' blog because prep is a privilege. But the whole point of this blog is to be as real, as honest and as close to the bone as I can be. So I will be honest. The last few days have been the darkest days I've ever faced.
"I am not good enough"
"I cannot do this"
"I haven't got what it take"
"I am too autistic"
All these thoughts have filled my head, and my god its been the hardest thing in the world to ignore. Every picture, every reflection, every image of myself has made me sick with worry because "I am not ready". Because "I am not good enough".
I know logically that I AM ready, that I AM good enough, and god dam it I AM a warrior princess that can take over the world. But my brain, my scared, autistic brain doesn't want to try... because trying is scary, trying means you could fail... Trying... trying means that I am really and truly going for a dream, a goal that I have longed for, for so long.
When I get scared I want to run, run far away and hide from the world. I run away from friends because im scared they could hurt me, ive run away from partners because... well again im scared of being hurt and now im wanting to run away because im really bloody scared. this means so much to me, ive worked my arse off for this and what if all those people that told me "youre not good enough" what if theyre right...
But then something amazing happened... after the worst night sleep, grumpy and tired I put on my bikini and started my posing. I looked in that mirror and started to cry. I saw the warrior princess that I knew I could be. I saw lines, I saw detail, I saw an athlete, I saw a bodybuilder, I saw someone who I couldn't believe I had become.
In the darkness, we forget to stop and look. I mean stop and really look, look with our heart not our clouded mind. My dark cloud has been lifted and im now on cloud nine! I am so proud of the person I have become. I am stronger for the darkness and I am greatful for the struggle, champions are built in the darkness and I promise I will be no different. I will work, I will try, I will push everyday until I get to where I want to be. I will never give up, my fire will never be put out because I know I am doing something truly special. something I have talent for, something I was made to do.
So to anyone who is stuck in the darkness, to anyone who doesn't believe they are good enough, for every little girl who was told she is "too" this or "too" that. For every autistic that has been too scared to try... THIS IS FOR YOU! I DO THIS FOR YOU, FOR US! Because we are more then good enough and we have the power, the talent, the passion to follow any dream! and I promise you right now its the best god dam feeling in the world.
|Length (inches)||26 7/8||27 1/2||28 1/8||28 3/4||29 3/8|
|Width (inches)||15||16||17||18||19 1/2|
*These are not preshrunk.
|Chest (to fit):||34/36||38/40||42/44||46/48||50/52||54/56||58/60||62/64|
How to Size: Measure circumference of the knee (mid-patella) in a locked position (muscles must be relaxed). If your calves are bigger than your knee measurement, we recommend using the circumference of your calf.
We recommend going down at least one size from your measurement.
|Size||Center of Knee (in)|
|XS||12" - 13.3"|
|S||13.3" - 14.5"|
|M||14.5" - 15.7"|
|L||15.7" - 17"|
|XL||17" - 17.7"|
|2XL||17.7" - 18.5"|
|3XL||18.5" - 19.3"|
|4XL||19.3" - 20"|
For general elbow pain or support we recommend that you measure the circumference of your elbow joint. We recommend going down one size for general elbow support. So if you measure 12”, purchase the 11” Cuff.
For tendonitis pain in the forearm or elbow we recommend that you measure the circumference of your forearm roughly 1" below your elbow joint. We recommend going down two sizes for tight compression. For example, if you measure 10" then purchase the 8" Cuff.
We advise you to measure your arm in a straight locked out position with your muscles relaxed. Measure the circumference of your arm at the centre of your elbow, our chat is in inches.
Select the size that best fits your measurement.
Pelase do not hesitate to email us to ask advice if required at firstname.lastname@example.org
|Size||Center of Elbow (in)|
|S||9.0 - 10.5|
|M||10 - 11.5|
|L||11.5 - 13.5|
|XL||13.0 - 15.0|
|2XL||14.5 - 16.0|
|3XL||15.5 - 17.0|
|4XL||16.5 - 18.0|
Measure circumference of the knee (mid-patella) in a locked position (muscles must be relaxed). Unisex sizes.
|S||11.8 in. - 13.0 in.|
|M||13.0 in. - 14.2 in.|
|L||14.2 in. - 15.7 in.|
|XL||15.7 in. - 17.0 in.|
|XXL||17.0 in. - 18.3 in.|
*If you prefer a tighter fit please order one size smaller than your measurement.
Measuring Up For Your New Belt:
Use a soft measuring tape, measure around your waist approximately 4 inches above where your pant would sit. Please do not suck your stomach in and keep everything relaxed when measuring.
|S||24 in. - 29 in.|
|M||28 in. - 33 in.|
|L||32 in. - 37 in.|
|XL||36 in. - 42 in.|
|XXL||41 in. - 46 in.|